Goin joggin tonite from LES to WILLY B across the bridge.  im so psyched.  i had a conversation with this chick last nite and she was saying how awesome it is to run.  even though i hate running, i dont wanna turn my body into mush...then for sure i aint gonna get no man....but more than that, i like the thought of clearing my head during a nice evening run across the bridge.

this is gonna be pure awesome.  i hope i can make a habit out of this.  and then....in the summer.........SURFING IN ROCKAWAY.  YAHOO!  I hope i haven't forgotten everything i learned last summer.  dang, working out might actually be good for my soul.

 BRING THE PAIN

i like the part where she goes...."bow wow woah oh no......bow wow woah oh no......bow wow woah oh no.....nobody baaaaaaby"

straight Hutch sex music right there.  Silk Sheets, velvet walls, long finernails...hot oils.....mirror on the ceiling.  

heres another good one:

GUESS WHAT WORLD!  I THINK IM OKAY!  YAY.


after a 2 year hiatus i have been listening to love songs.  all things despicably cheezy and heart wrenching. 

i created a playlist called:

my wrist slitters:

tara the riviera told me last week that Love has timing.  Some things dont work out cuz the timing is wrong.  It's kinda sad, b/c you can really really really try so damn hard, and give it your 150%, blood sweat and tears.......and still fail.  your greatest hope deferred.  now i know...you just gotta learn from your past, realize where you went wrong....how you coulda been less selfish, more sacrificial, and more loving....and be a better woman for your next relationship.  

HOLY COWZERS...I NEED A FREAKIN' PUERTO RICAN VACATION

GEEZ....ONE MORE ORDER...ONE MORE EMAIL...AND IM LOSING MY MIND!!!!

 NAH MEAN SON!!!!   SOMEBODY TAKE ME TO THE FRENCH RIVIERA

coming out of a dark place....

i am slowly starting to breath fresh air.  i was so reluctant to go through changes in life, and for 3 months it was so depressing....

i think i am slowly realizing there is more out there in the world than what little i knew.   i am also starting to feel thankful for my blessings.  before i knew in my mind that i was lucky and blessed in many ways, but my heart wasn't feeling that joy.  praise God...that now my heart is starting to feel some hope and joy. 

clarity in my mind and heart is awesome. 

2012 - YEAR OF THE DRAGON

herro world.

i'mmmmmmm baaaaaaaack.  who's bad.

new year, 2012, and God has flipped my world upside down and shakey shakey like chickn' bakey.

i lost my bf.  it was sad in the beginning and i had anxiety + sadness + roneryness + sleep issues.  i rearized that im a weak woman and a hopeless romantic, and really good at giving my heart away for men to step on and trample and break into a brillion pieces.  and ya know....i used to think that i was outta his league... but he sure told me.....

what else, i got my own apartment in the LES.  it's cute and perfect for a girl like me, but i don't like it.  cuz i rearized that i don't like living alone (the hopeless romantic/weak woman thing)...and i would rather be wifed up....(yes, what every man in nyc stays away from)....but so is life and God....forcing me to become an independant woman who pays for her own overpriced NYC apartment and fills it with all cute things.  most modern woman would feel like a badass...career woman....like all cool and stuff.....and be new yorky ...and just use men for boom boom.....but im not there yet.  hopefully by the end of 2012, i will be a new changed woman.  the goal for this year: 


TO BE HAPPILY SINGLE


ugh.....i don't even like the sound of that.  it sounds gross.  oh well, i hope i can accomplish it.  but im a weakling!  i hafta eat dinners alone now.  ugh.   i even went to Minca Ramen Factory to try this whole single thing....HOLY COW IT SUCKS.  I DON'T RECOMMEND TO ANY WOMAN.  you sit there and slurp your ramen soup, and look depressed.  no matter how cute you look.  and it ain't like you gonna find a man at the Ramen Factory. 

okie, im at project tradeshow now.  back to workie workie.

byeeee!

Conversation with mom 5 minutes ago

me:  "Mom i'm in chicago for work.  i need you to buy me a dresser and rug right now.  its on sale at macys."

mom:  "Juree, you cannot just push human beings.  I am hiking with daddy right now. dont call me." 

(click).