Goin joggin tonite from LES to WILLY B across the bridge.  im so psyched.  i had a conversation with this chick last nite and she was saying how awesome it is to run.  even though i hate running, i dont wanna turn my body into mush...then for sure i aint gonna get no man....but more than that, i like the thought of clearing my head during a nice evening run across the bridge.

this is gonna be pure awesome.  i hope i can make a habit out of this.  and then....in the summer.........SURFING IN ROCKAWAY.  YAHOO!  I hope i haven't forgotten everything i learned last summer.  dang, working out might actually be good for my soul.

 BRING THE PAIN

i like the part where she goes...."bow wow woah oh no......bow wow woah oh no......bow wow woah oh no.....nobody baaaaaaby"

straight Hutch sex music right there.  Silk Sheets, velvet walls, long finernails...hot oils.....mirror on the ceiling.  

heres another good one:

GUESS WHAT WORLD!  I THINK IM OKAY!  YAY.


after a 2 year hiatus i have been listening to love songs.  all things despicably cheezy and heart wrenching. 

i created a playlist called:

my wrist slitters:

tara the riviera told me last week that Love has timing.  Some things dont work out cuz the timing is wrong.  It's kinda sad, b/c you can really really really try so damn hard, and give it your 150%, blood sweat and tears.......and still fail.  your greatest hope deferred.  now i know...you just gotta learn from your past, realize where you went wrong....how you coulda been less selfish, more sacrificial, and more loving....and be a better woman for your next relationship.